Welcome to Creative Expression

Creative Expression was an integral part of healing my past...
This is not meant to vilify anyone. My mother was a beautiful and talented lady. My grandmother was a strong accomplished woman in a man's world.
This is about releasing the past that's literally pent up inside and eventually observing it and realizing it had very little to do with me...everyone was projecting how they felt about themselves onto others...
Before healing with my mother, I could not even be around women. Now, by changing my relationship with my beautiful mother, I have changed my relationship with all women...
And I thank ALL you beautiful ladies for balancing the scales and now being a part of my healing...
The past doesn't matter because I have established a new relationship with my mother and my grandmother. They are my guides, and they have proved it with evidence and miraculous healings...bringing me to the bigger picture. That everything has a reason, including our temporary existence here. Nothing happens in God's world (OUR world) randomly....when we can't figure it out is where faith comes in, knowing that love is our essence and that is also at the foundation of everything we are experiencing/learning. In order to experience being God in your own life, you must first experience NOT being God...then you realize it's the same for everyone.
From Tragic
To Magic


Hey Mom It’s Me

I was only ten
I saw you laying on the floor
Dad tryin’ to revive you
EMTs at the door

Didn’t know what to think
Why couldn’t I cry
Didn’t I care
You were about to die??

I think back
And have a look
Could be from all
The beatings I took…

I know I was young
And always thick
I just didn’t understand
That you were so sick

I really wish
This fact wasn’t true
I can’t remember one happy moment
Being spent with you

Hey Mom it’s Me
It’s you I can’t wait to see
Meet you with the Lord  Above
Time for you to show me
Some of that Heavenly Love

I never needed much
Mostly played all alone
I remember drivin’ Dad’s car
Through the funeral home

Dennis the Menace
Had nothin’ on me
I drove that car
At the age of three

I'm just reminiscing
Is there still hope?
I remember that oral cleansing
With a bar of Ivory Soap...

Remember that time
I used that line by the Duke
It seemed to work on t.v.
Man, did you beat the shit outta me…

Me and Sis had a race
Cross the basement floor
New wax all over the place
We were sock skatin’
To the glass slidin’ door

We went flyin’ cross the room
Wound up outside
You were pickin’ glass for hours
Outta my hide…

I know
That wasn’t much fun…
By the way…
I won…

Dad caught me in the garage
With the hose behind my back
I almost burned down the house
Threw a lit match in a sack…

It wasn’t somethin’
I meant to be…
Thanks Dad…
For not tellin’ on me…

That’s how it went
One crazy stunt after another
Lord Have Mercy
On my poor Father and Mother…

Not much I wouldn’t give
Not much I wouldn’t do
Just to have a few moments
Of quality time with you…

Hey Mom it’s Me
It’s still you
I Can’t wait to see
Meetin’ you with the Lord Above
You know I need your Love

Rather than physical abuse
May I have another?
How bout’ tellin’ me…
I killed my mother?

Why couldn't grandma draw...
One nice breath?
She said I was responsible
For your death…

What a horrible thing
To tell a little boy!!
Was she trying to kill
Any chance of joy?

They say talk is cheap
I say talk can smart
Those words were like a dagger…
Right through my heart

I know she was hurt
She lost her little girl
But MAN did she fuck up
My spiritual world…

In my mind
I knew that wasn’t so
But my soul just
Could not let it go…

That’s why my soul thinks
I don’t deserve Love…
These are the causes
That I MUST rise above

No wonder why
I’ve had so much misery
Lovin’ all these people
Who won’t Love me…

So here I am Mom
Forty years later
I need your Love
Even greater…

Not anymore Mom
I need no one else
Cause I went back in time...
And started Lovin' myself!

Goin' Back...

You know the saying...
"It's never too late..."
So I went back in time
To set things straight

I went back in time
To those tragic events
And gave myself something
That was Heaven sent

Material things
I can't manifest
But Love and Energy
Are at My BEHEST! !

So I  went back to a time
When I was a wee little lad
When I was full of guilt
When I was way too sad...

I said, "Hey Little Man...
I'm so sorry...
For the way that you're feelin'
I'm gonna Love You, and start the healin'...

I'm You...
From a long time from now
I Love You So much...
And I'm gonna show You how...

You're a tough Little Man
You're gonna pull through. ..
I want you to know...
I'll ALWAYS be here for you...

One thing can you tell me..."
As I gave him a Loving touch
I asked him, "How much do you trust me?"
He spread his little arms wide open and said...
"THIS MUCH!!!"

So I gave him a big ole hug
Told him, "I got your back from this day!"
He hugged me back, kissed me on the cheek
And then he walked away

Now about that little girl
You Loved so bad...
The worst betrayal
You ever had

After five years
Of no disillusionment
No wonder why
Your Soul was so bent

She was never yours
You refused to see
What's worst, you lost...
Another family

You were twenty four
You couldn't take anymore
What could be sadder?
Leaving you for that piece of trash...
Like You didn't matter

I'm here to tell you
Just forget her!
You're Full of Love!!
You deserve so much better!

This is just one of the lessons
You needed to learn
You knew it all along
That your Heart was gonna burn

Had You Loved Yourself
You would've been wise
You would've listened to your insight
And denounced, that beautiful disguise

So listen up Bro!
You need to know...
That I Really Love You
And it'll only grow

How much do you trust me?
He raised his fist and yelled, " 100 PERCENT!!!"
I said, "I'll always give you Love and Loyalty! "
We gave each other a tearful hug, and away he went...

When I Love myself in the past...
It's amazing! I wish you could see...
I can feel that vibrant Love...
Catchin' up to me!

So when those demons from the past...
They start invadin'...
You should try this remedy...
It's elevatin'...